December 13th, 2007
|06:51 pm - Word of the day - guileful|
Good lord you have to be kidding me.
On another note, I am not in class tonight, YAY! I figured I'd bake some cookies since I haven't in quite some time. I can't wait until we all make Christmas cookies...cut out some trees, candy canes, & wreathes and decorate them. I love the holidays again!!!
Current Mood: amused
February 27th, 2007
November 3rd, 2006
|03:07 pm - Not again ... no no no|
Ok so I had my MRI on Monday and had a follow up appointment with the orthopaedic surgeon today to find out what he saw on the films. Let me start by saying my general practioner got my hopes up by telling me I probably tore my Meniscus tissue and would need a little arthroscopy surgery. I wasn't thrilled, but at least it wasn't ACL reconstruction surgery. YEP. Not so much...apparnetly i DID tear my ACL in my "good" knee and will need to have surgery. Super... I didn't have anything planned for the next six months anyway. :(
October 16th, 2006
|09:59 pm - Greeeeeeeeeat|
Life has been so busy (as usual). Andrew is involved in quite a few things right now and it's a lot of fun. He's playing fall baseball and his team is doing very well. He's also in the cub scouts and I'm really enjoying it. I always wanted to be in the cub/boy scouts when I was little, but girls weren't allowed. :) He's also just gotten into Tae Kwon Do and likes it. Of course that makes me happy since I have always loved Martial Arts. SO I've lost about 10 pounds and I thought "I really want to get back into Tae Kwon Do"... so we signed up. First class was going great, it was an intense workout until....I did a kick and my knee gave out. Now I can't walk. Deja fucking vu. I tore my ACL years ago when I took Tae Kwon Do in Korea. I have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon Thursday. I do NOT want to have to go through another knee surgery. Maybe I just need some physical therpay...I hope
I need new knees.
Current Mood: sore
June 19th, 2006
|01:42 pm - Regrets|
I have tried to live my life without regrets. I've done pretty well in my 31 years, until now. My grandmother passed away June 7th. I hadn't seen her in about 3 1/2 years. I am SO mad and upset with myself for letting that much time slip away without a visit. My grandma had been battling a brain tumor for about the last year and a half. The doctors removed an orange size tumor back in December of 2004. Within a few months of rehab my grandma was back to her independent and witty self. My Aunt had been living with her in PA during her recovery and after a few months my aunt went back to NC. Well a few months ago my aunt called to say my grandmother was starting to lose her memory again and calling things by the wrong name. The doctors thought it could be some residual swelling. They put her on steroids and other assorted medications and scheduled another Catscan/MRI. Once they finally got around to doing this, they found the tumor was the type that becomes very aggressive when it's been aggravated. There were a few tumors now and there wasn't anything they could do. They gave her 3-5 months to live at the beginning of June. As soon as my aunt told me I scheduled a flight to go up on the 15th to see her. Early on the 7th my aunt once again called, this time to tell me "Gwen, I'm so sorry, but they think grandma has a few days". I left work, went home to pack. We jumped in the car and left and when we were in NC I got a call saying she passed away. I don't know that I've ever hurt so bad. I had been so close with my grandma. When I was a kid I spent more time at her house than I did at my own. I loved sleepovers at her house. I loved listening to her play the piano. At night she would make up the couch for me and we would watch Wheel of Fortune, the evening news, and the Carol Burnett show. She was always so proud of me and never missed an opportunity to tell her friends about my latest accomplishments. :) She was, as my dad would say, truly a saint. She never missed church, never had an ill word to say about ANYONE, and loved her children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren to the moon and back. I miss her so much.
Why do we take time for granted... "there's always tomorrow". But there's not always tomorrow. All those stupid cliche's are running through my head now. I think my uncle said it best "I thought Mom would live forever". I did too, I thought my grandmother would live forever. She was 85 and always so healthy an independent. I thought there'd always be a tomorrow to see her. We get too caught up in our busy lives. I will learn from this.
The irony is almost the entire family (children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren) was there. It was nice to see some aunts, uncles, and cousins I hadn't seen in years. After the services and mass we all got together to have brunch, talk and reminisce, and take pictures. I know my grandmother would have loved it.
Where does the time go?!?!
Current Mood: sad
May 18th, 2006
|09:11 am - Auf Wiedersehen|
So tonight... my g/f is leaving me. Karen (Will & Grace) is bidding farewell. Don't leeeeeeeave me Karen!!! lol I'm so sad.
I got a new cookbook for Mother's day... YAY for Rachel Ray.
Ok... i know i rant a lot about Bush. I can't help it, the man is an idiot and the worst president EVER!!! So, this new 70 billion tax cut is truly a brilliant idea. I mean the country has a trillion dollar deficit currently. And the tax cut equates to a 2-46 dollar cut for those with incomes below 50,000 a year. Guess what the tax break is those who make a million or more? 46 THOUSAND dollars. Yeah, that sounds fair. Keep my fucking 46 dollars and put it towards our failing education system! By far though, this has to be one of the best quotes from him.
"With this bill, we're sending the American people a clear message about our policy," Bush said. "We're going to continue to trust the American people with their own money."
Trust me?!?! Trust me with MY money that i work 40-50 hours a week for?
Thank you Hitler!
May 3rd, 2006
|07:48 am - What's that in the air?|
I absolutely LOVE the smell of Spring. Last night, driving back to the house around sunset and I had my window down. I could smell spring... that mix of lilacs and honeysuckle and cut grass... it's so invigorating!
So I'm supposed to take a test this Friday which will complete this series of tests for MCSA. I'm not ready for it. I don't want to, but I have to reschedule it. It has been SO hard to study for this test. I need to buckle down and get it done though. I also need to register for school. I'm determined to get in the Fall Semester, but damn that deadline is coming right up! So much to do.
It's that time of year, Six Flags is calling. I want to go soon and test out the new roller coatser :D. I still haven't rode Superman either! So who wants to go ride roller coasters with me?!?!
Current Mood: awake
April 30th, 2006
|10:52 am - Where was my head?!?!|
I don't think i have ever been so mad at myself!! Those who know me know how I am about my camera. I don't go anywhere without it. Especially Andrew's sporting events. So yesterday Andrew had a game and we show up at the field early. As we're walking up we see some kids running up to this guy with balls and bats. He looked SO familiar. So Andrew comes up to us and says the pitcher for the Devil Rays is here. So we're like cool and Brittany fishes out a ball from his bat bag for him to get signed. I don't keep up with baseball as much as I used to, so I have no idea who pitches for the Devil Rays. But as we're standing there in my head I'm thinking "MAN that looks like Tom Glavine". Andrew comes back with the ball and I look at the signature. I was like NO WAY... that IS Tom Glavine!!! He's one of my favorite pitchers. I overhear his wife say "well we have to get him to work, he's pitching tonight"... which just sounded funny to me. So I call my dad to tell him and thinks it's pretty darn cool and asks me if i ... took a picture. I was like OH MY GOD. Camera in pocket the WHOLE time and I never took a picture. Andrew was standing next to a likely future hall of fame pitcher and there was my camera in my freakin pocket. I think there must have been a disconnect in my head since Andrew said Tampa Bay pitcher and I was looking at him thinking he looks like Tom Glavine, but he doesn't pitch for the Devil Rays. I could kick myself. So, I took a picture of the baseball.
On another note, we watched movies last night. I did not like Hostel at ALL!!! I'm not big into gore flicks as it is, but that movie took it to another level!!! The whole scene with the achilles heel...I knew exactly what he was doing even though you couldn't see it at first then they showed it. UGH!!! I will never get that image out of my head.
Current Mood: pensive
April 29th, 2006
|02:38 pm - New favorite song|
I heard Nickleback's new song "Savin me" about two weeks ago on the radio and loved it the minute i heard it. This has GOT to be the most powerful music video i've seen in a long long time. Go check it out on MTV
April 20th, 2006
|11:58 pm - What a stupid thing to say to me|
Isn't there a saying, something to the affect of Pain Lets You Know You're Alive? Is that physical pain or emotional pain? What an obtuse statement. Breathing air in and out in the morning also let's me know I'm alive. I don't feel the urge to go out and stub my toe to REALLY feel alive. I'm really too alive these days as is. I want to sit on a porch on a summer evening at sunset.. perpetually. At least until I feel safe to let the sun set. Yeah.
Why can't life be played out like song lyrics...
"Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe"
I love Sara...her lyrics have always struck a chord with me. Look at the time. I think I'll make the world go away.... for a few hours at least.
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Hold Me - Fleetwood Mac